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[asterroc]

Peeper didn't make it through the night. when i woke to give her her medicine this morning she didn't respond to her name, or move when i touched her, then i realized she was cold. i think i'm going to have her cremated and keep her ashes until i can find somewhere nice to scatter or bury them.

please tell other people for me so i don't have to.

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[zandperl.livejournal.com]

and it actually wasn't all that horrible. it probably would've been worse if i'd watched her. i was somewhat prepared for it, so the biggest shock was just feeling her cold. and my emotional side keeps trying to blame me for not doing something-or-other that would've saved her, but my rational side knows that i always tried my hardest to pick the best thing at every moment, and that even if i'd gotten her back to the animal hospital either they just would've saved her momentarily and the same thing would've happened the next time i brought her home, or else she would've died at the vet's when i wasn't near her.