Control

[asterroc]

A couple of my students recently have asked me ... well, they said, "you know what it's like to drink a lot, you were a college student." And my answer was no, I don't know what it's like. "C'mon, you have to have drunk." "Yeah right, of course you drank." And no, I didn't. I didn't really drink anything until grad school, and even to this day the most I've had in a night is three. I think I've done this on three separate occasions, and one time I really thought I was going to puke and fall over with just that little.

So the question is why not? And reading through some literature on binge drinking, I figured it out. There is exactly one thing in the world that I can control: Myself. I am not willing to give that up.

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[gemini6ice.livejournal.com]

Verbalizing my thoughts is going to be difficult here, because a lot of what I feel on the subject is kind of abstract, thoughts that aren't in words to begin with. I want to draw up a metaphor, but I'm having difficulty wording its justification. drugs and alcohol:filters are stylization in photoshop:: friends, company, ambiance:pasting additional layers in photoshop or juxtaposing bitmaps. One changes it directly; the other provides its own separate experience that complements it. In color theory, we examined relationships of colors. A swatch of grey in a sea of orange is going to look bluish, and our eyes will interpret it as blue. But that's different than actually mixing the grey pigments with some blue ones to create a new swatch.