alone

[asterroc]

Some day I'll stop crying when I read things like

Go with me on the last journey. Never say "I can’t bear to watch it," or "Let it happen in my absence." Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember that I love you.
--10 Commandments of Parrot Ownership

I didn't wake up. It was 9 in the morning and I went back to sleep and when I woke and uncovered her, she was gone. She'd gone quietly, I never heard it. I wish I hadn't gone back to sleep. her body was pointed towards the water bowl, she was struggling to get to it? her eyes, eye sockets were sunken, dried up. and i wasn't there for her.

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[sclerotic-rings.livejournal.com]

I understand too well: I've never had a parrot, but I nearly broke down reading that myself. Nearly ten years ago, I had to have a beautiful and incredibly friendly savannah monitor put down, and I still wish that I'd had the courage to be there for him.

[tikva.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie. :( *hugshugshugs*

[meredithanne42.livejournal.com]

That's very sad to read.

You might not have been right beside her, but you were there, in the house--and I bet she knew that you were.