HS: Argh

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I don't know if it's because I had less Remicade in this last dose due to the reaction, or for some other reason, but I've got a cyst flaring up. :(((((( It's in my left armpit - they're usually in my armpits, so that if I don't say, assume that's where it is. Yesterday I thought it was getting better (smaller, less painful), but today it's bigger (golf ball in the armpit, and it's T-shirt weather too). I've been putting off laundry for a while, and I was going to do it today but by the time I got home I realized it was painful to raise and lower my arm. I can still do house-stuffs, like making dinner, but I don't want to carry two overstuffed laundry bags and a laundry basket down two sets of stairs, two or three blocks to the laundromat, do my wash, carry them back 2-3 blocks, and back up the stairs, and fold and put them away. Stuff like cooking dinner I can just favor my left arm, and if I don't use it at all it'll go numb in whatever position it's in. When I move my arm from typing position to something else, it goes slowly as I subconsciously try not to cause myself pain, and then after I stop moving it tingles for a moment.

I'm glad I already finished writing tomorrow's test and sending it to the printer. I'm just so *tired*. I want to cry. I don't want to do anything, even make dinner, but I know I'll like what I'm making.